11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. - Jeremiah 29:11
Patience is a virtue. That's a song lyric that gets stuck in my head every time I'm challenged with staying poised during a time of great transition... or during a time of possible transition... like right now. I'm no stranger to transition or adventure. It's not always easy, but I've learned a bit about how to maneuver your way through liminal space with grace. But patience before I get to liminal space? Well, I'm still working on that one.
Such is the case right now. I should know something more concrete in a few days time, but currently my mind is swirling with imaginary hopes and fears. I have to make a concerted effort to give this all to God, and I have to remind myself that even if something seems very appealing to me, it is God's will, not mine that I have to be concerned with. It's taken me a long time to learn this lesson too, but oh it's a good one!
My wonderful husband has brought a lot of wisdom to this marriage. One thing he taught me early on when we were faced with a similar transition, is that attempting to force things to happen is futile and goes against God's will. Force is a losing battle and is detrimental to the spirit. So I have learned and am still learning to let life play out as God intends, and do my part where I can. During these times, the Serenity Prayer is so comforting.
And yet I still wonder and wait. What will become? It's not a small decision. It's a biggie, and I fully trust that God knows what is best for us. I can see my growth in this area, because I have not been badgering my husband with questions or selfish visions, as I have done in the past. I have simply allowed him to speak on the subject and listened, offering my own insight when asked for. This is a big step toward patience for me. It has made all the difference.
Another thing that comes to mind during this time, is that when I wonder and worry and stress and imagine, I find myself in my head and it's easy to miss out on what is going on in reality. I've had to ground myself with daily walks with my love. I've had to take the time to appreciate all that we've built and all that we've worked for and have been given by God. This is a game changer. This is gratitude and it makes the hurry up and wait a lot easier to take. ♥